tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32208654102111700992024-03-05T08:24:13.119-06:00As We GatherAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.comBlogger71125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-85265593502888948112015-01-27T00:32:00.001-06:002015-01-27T00:32:45.530-06:00New Blog Name<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
You are lucky because you get TWO blog posts from me today! Yay! <div>
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I have been thinking about changing my blog name for a while now, but I wasn't sure what to change it to. For the past few years, I have had the name Just a Little Russian, as it was about my travels throughout Russia, but that doesn't fit anymore. So the questions were, what to change it to and what is the purpose for this blog? </div>
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Eoghan Heaslip, a cool Irish dude, wrote a song called Gathering Song a few years ago. While in Russia, I discovered this guy and I fell in love with his music, and possibly his accent as well. This song, the Gathering Song, is one that is continually playing in my head. </div>
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Here are the lyrics:</div>
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Your word through the ages
Like an anchor for all time, as one we sing
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He who has promised, will be faithful
He who has promised, will be true
He who has begun, a good work will complete it
O Lord, all our hope is found in You
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You, Found in You
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-41121263788761385642015-01-26T23:51:00.000-06:002015-01-26T23:51:02.674-06:00Life Happened<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's been awhile since I've posted on here, and shame on me for not doing so! Let me catch y'all up to date on what's been happening over the past few years...<br />
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First of all, I now live in Kansas City, MO! Yep, that's right, KCMO! I am working on my second Master's of Art degree at Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary. My first degree was completed earlier this year from Liberty University online and it's a Master's of Arts in Human Services.<br />
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So, you're probably wondering, why two masters degrees? Counseling is something I've struggled with since finishing high school. I had this foolish notion in my head that counseling was one person telling a client what to do and the client never doing it and staying the same. While studying for my degree from Liberty, I was able to take several classes which focused directly on counseling, and I loved them! Also, I had the opportunity to work for a pregnancy center, and I was able to help women and I realized the women were changing and growing, and they even listened to some of my suggestions as their peer counselor. That is when I realized I actually could be a counselor. All my running and telling God no, was foolish. So, almost 13 years after high school, here I am working on my counseling degree which will lead me to become a professional counselor.<br />
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If you would have told me a few years ago, even about six months ago, that I would be living in Kansas City, Missouri, I would have laughed at you! I never dreamed that I would be living in the Midwest! It's so weird to hear people talk about the Midwest and to adjust to the Midwest culture. Yes, it's still the states and only about 8 hours north of my home in East Texas, but it's still different. So far, I am falling in LOVE with this city! There is so much culture and history here!<br />
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Also, God has provided me with an awesome apartment on campus, with an amazing roommate and neighbor who love the Lord and have a heart for seeking and following his will! I have missed the campus environment and being surrounded by people my age. Now, I just need to get used to the seminary life where women are the minority and men are everywhere! Yikes! ;)<br />
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While God has been doing amazing things in my life, and has led me here to KC, I am still figuring some things out. For example, I moved here without a job! The past few weeks have been this juggling act of adjusting to classes and studying along with searching for a job. I remember a conversation I had with a new couple from my church back in Canton. He and his wife moved to East Texas without having a house or a job, because they knew that God was calling them there. He said that he loved not knowing where the next pay check would come from because he was able to see how God would provide. Well friends, I am not necessarily loving this stage of my life of not having a job, but I am definitely increasing in my faith in God to know that he will provide for my needs. It's so comforting to read in Matthew how God cares for the birds and the flowers. For I know that if he loves and cares for those things, how much more does he love and care and will provide for me?!? Faith being increased is not always a lovely nor ideal experience, but I know it will be worth it.<br />
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Now that I've updated everyone, I will try to post more frequently, it's a new goal of mine. Remember you are precious to God, more than the flowers of the field and the birds in the sky, so do not worry or be anxious for God will provide for you (Matthew 6:25-34).<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-12954373869023912292013-09-07T02:38:00.000-05:002013-09-07T02:38:50.738-05:00Abundant <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Life is messy. It isn't neat and it is FAR from perfect. We laugh, we cry. We love, we loose love.<br />
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Life can be a beautiful thing, but it's also full of hurts and pain. It's easy to pull within ourselves and to shelter our hearts and minds from experiencing pain.<br />
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I sometimes wonder why God allows certain people to be called home and then allows others to live. Why call home a sweet little boy who was celebrating with his family his dad's accomplishment of completing the Boston Marathon? Why call home a vibrant, dedicated, 30 year old husband with a family at home...Yet leave the murderers, rapists, terrorist, and other vile human beings?<br />
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Life is messy. It's painful. It's confusing. <br />
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It's so easy to look at all of life's hurts, pains, and frustrations and say, "Why, God?" It's also easy to turn your back on God and to withdraw inside yourself and to cut off loving others because loosing a loved one hurts. But we have to live. We have to love, laugh, dance, sing, run, and play. We have to make the choice to wake up the next day and say, "Thank you God for another wonderfully glorious day!"<br />
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We have to choose to live, and to live life abundantly.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-90051925693534672782013-09-07T02:37:00.000-05:002013-09-07T02:37:34.787-05:00Update on Life <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Sorry everyone that I haven't posted in almost over a year!! If I were to say that life has been crazy, that would be an understatement. Let me get everyone up to speed with what's happening in my little world. <div>
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Last fall after returning home from Russia, I was still having a hard time finding a job in the "real world", even with my college degree, finding a job was not easy in my small home town. So, while I was working for my family's business, I also started volunteering at a local crisis pregnancy center. For several years now, I have felt the need to volunteer there, but because of my transient lifestyle, I wasn't able to make that commitment. Last fall it was finally the right season of life for me to volunteer. I went to the center, filled out an application, had my interview, and started volunteering. A few months after volunteering, I was offered a job with the center! How amazing is our God?! I am now the Client Services Director and I work with our clients and manage our volunteers. I love my job and it is great experience for me. </div>
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After thinking about what I want to do in life, I decided that I needed to start pursuing my graduate degree. Then came the overwhelming task of answering the following questions: where I would obtain this degree, what type of grad degree do I want/need, and how am I going to pay for it? Thankfully, I found Liberty University based out of Virginia and they have an amazing online program. They have 8 week semesters, so I am able to get this degree knocked out in a little more than a year. Getting this degree was not always that I wanted, but after searching for a job for more than 6 months, I realized that I needed one. Again, God provided me with the perfect job and the perfect degree. I am so excited to eventually use the degree I'm currently pursing. When all is said and done, I'll have a Master's in Human Services with concentration on Military Resilience. </div>
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Hopefully, by the middle/end of next summer, I'll be able to work with our military and their families, helping them adjust and handle problems within their families. </div>
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So this is just a little summary of life over the past year. Sorry for not posting regularly, I'll try to do better! </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-71052353282378716652012-09-11T12:23:00.001-05:002012-09-11T12:29:41.164-05:00Everlasting<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Pablo Ortiz and Frank De Martini. Who are these men and why in the world am I writing about them? <br />
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Before last night I had never heard of them, yet their stories greatly moved me. <br />
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Last night I was channel surfing and came across a television special on 9/11. This particular one was called Heroes of the 88th Floor. It had survivors sharing their horrific stories, how they were trapped on a floor or in an elevator. They gave up hope of being rescued. Then two men came, pried the doors open and helped people find their ways to the stairwell. The show had survivor after survivor telling how Frank and Pablo helped them. "If it wasn't for Frank and Pablo, I wouldn't be here," was something I heard often from their lips. At the end of the show, one man said, they gave their life for me, and I am willing to give my life for others like they did. <br />
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Pablo Ortiz and Frank De Martini were simply two average men. They didn't possess supernatural strength. They weren't body builders who could bench hundreds of pounds. They were fathers, husbands. They saved over 70 people. Many of those 70 people then turned around and helped others escape. <br />
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At the very end of the program, a chorus was played in the background while they continued to show footage and survivors recounted their stories. Not many people would recognize the song by the music alone. Here are the lyrics:<br />
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What a fellowship, what a joy divine,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms;<br />
What a blessedness, what a peace is mine,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms.<br />
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Refrain:<br />
Leaning, leaning, safe and secure from all alarms;<br />
Leaning, leaning, leaning on the everlasting arms.<br />
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Oh, how sweet to walk in this pilgrim way,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms;<br />
Oh, how bright the path grows from day to day,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms.<br />
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What have I to dread, what have I to fear,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms?<br />
I have blessed peace with my Lord so near,<br />
Leaning on the everlasting arms.<br />
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Elisha A. Hoffman 1887<br />
"Leaning on the Everlasting Arms"<br />
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I will never forget what happened on 9/11/01. I will never forget the stories I heard how God used two simple men and how their actions of courage, valor, and honor brought peace, hope and comfort to those they saved, and to all of us who have heard those stories. <br />
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Out of this truly horrific evil event, people found peace, comfort, and safety-all these things that only come from an everlasting Father.<br />
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Do you want to have this peace?<br />
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</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-9551651301037581272012-05-28T09:00:00.001-05:002012-05-28T09:00:27.296-05:00Looking Up<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.australianecosystems.com.au/images/image_gallery/LowRes_gall2_portrait/Simpson-desertclouds.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="500" width="447" src="http://www.australianecosystems.com.au/images/image_gallery/LowRes_gall2_portrait/Simpson-desertclouds.jpg" /></a></div>Lately, I've been wondering why God is leading me to go home. Don't get me wrong, I want to go home, and I miss my family and friends, but I don't know why I'm supposed to go home. I have vague ideas of why, but no real path set before me. <br />
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It's weird to not know what is next in life. I know what I want to do, but God isn't telling me to do what I want! <br />
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So what's next? <br />
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Tonight, I was reading my Bible and came across this devotional about the Israelites in the desert, and how God showed them His will by the cloud during the day and the fire at night. (Numbers 8:15-23) All they had to do is look up and see God's will! <br />
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How amazing would it be if God did that for me!?! How easy would it be, to just follow God faithfully, and to know that He is leading you each step of the way. <br />
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It's not so easy for this modern day girl. I'm not an Israelite and I'm not living in the desert. I've never seen a cloud that looks like fire at night. So, how am I supposed to know God's next step for me? <br />
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I guess it comes from reading the Word each day, and spending time with Him, which by the way, is something that I've been neglecting! :( <br />
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So, what to do when you don't know what to do next? Do what God told you to do the last time you were sure He was speaking to you...and KEEP LOOKING UP! <br />
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Even though my heart is telling me to stay here, my brain is reminding my heart, it's time to go home. It's time to return to my roots and to see what's in store for me next. I'm praying and hoping that it's something great, because it's sure going to be hard to leave here, only something truly great can refill the Russia size<br />
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</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2Vladivostok, Primorsky Krai, Russia43.1666667 131.933333343.0740172 131.7754048 43.2593162 132.09126179999998tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-87565101709860201462012-04-29T04:16:00.002-05:002012-04-29T04:19:27.145-05:00Bigger Than I Can Imagine<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Today, on the way home from church, I was with one of my dear Russian friends and she shared that her parents had recently been in the states for a conference. At the conference, they found out that the church had been praying for my brother, John, and me. Somehow, this church knew of our struggles that we are dealing with in our current living/working situation. I have no idea how they found out, but I am so grateful for their prayers! <br />
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I think that's just like God to not only reassure us that people are praying for us, but to also put us in our place and to show us how big HE is. <br />
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Sure, I have friends in California, but I haven't really shared with any of them the struggles that we are experiencing, and I know that my brother and John as well haven't shared with anyone. We have no idea how this church knows, but just knowing makes it much better! People are standing with us, and seeking God for us! Wow! I am amazed at how God works for us! <br />
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What an amazing God we serve!! <br />
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And to the people out there praying for me, my brother, and John....THANK YOU!!! Just knowing that others are praying for us, helps so much!!! <br />
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What woke you up this morning?<br />
Some weird sound near my fridge! Yikes!!!<br />
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Where are you?<br />
In my apartment in Vladivostok<br />
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Is tomorrow going to be a good day?<br />
Hopefully a good day!!<br />
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What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?<br />
This upcoming week and all the things I have to do for it!! AAHHHH!!!!<br />
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What kind of home would you like?<br />
a comfortable one<br />
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Where do you see yourself in 5 years?<br />
still traveling the world!<br />
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Do you listen to music every day?<br />
Oh yeah! Music is such a huge part of my life!!<br />
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Do you still go trick or treating?<br />
ha! no!<br />
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What was the last thing you ate?<br />
frozen grapes<br />
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Are you a fast typer?<br />
yeah<br />
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What's your favorite color?<br />
It depends on my mood.<br />
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Whats your favorite type of soda?<br />
DR PEPPER<br />
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Have you ever moved? <br />
Many times<br />
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Have you ever won an award?<br />
yeah<br />
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Are you listening to music right now?<br />
yeah, Hillsong-Ты мой Господь<br />
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Who makes you mad?<br />
Mean and rude people!<br />
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Have you ever heard a song written about you?<br />
yeah, my brother wrote one for me.<br />
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What do you do when you’re mad?<br />
call my mom<br />
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When was the last time you actually cried?<br />
last week<br />
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Ever cried yourself to sleep?<br />
oh yeah, of course. i'm a girl!<br />
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Do certain songs make you cry?<br />
not usually<br />
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What usually makes you cry?<br />
something very moving or sad<br />
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Are you usually a happy person?<br />
yep<br />
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What makes you the happiest?<br />
several things make me happy, but being with my friends and family makes me the happiest!<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-74561904288740654732012-04-09T08:44:00.001-05:002012-04-09T08:44:25.107-05:00Hope"Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:3-4 (NIV)<br />
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Wow! This verse was what I needed to hear today! Life has not been easy the past three months. There has been almost something each day to deal with, and I'm not going to lie, it's been tough. Lately, it's been to the point that I just want to go home. Then God always comes to the rescue and reminds me that my time here in Russia is short and to tread on through all the daily muck and mire. <br />
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I often wonder, when another issue/problem arises, why there is so much spiritual opposition? It's not like I am Mother Teresa or Corrie Ten Boom. The work I do here, isn't something that is out of this world amazing. It's simple. I'm a teacher. So, why on earth am I facing so much opposition? <br />
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The only answer I've come up with, is that God is using all of these trials to make me seek Him. When I seek Him, I grow as a person and in my walk with Him. I know so far, that He has taught me from people I've come across, to watch out for certain characteristics and behaviors in my own life, to purge of them while I am young and not to let them take root and grow. <br />
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I am grateful for what I have learned, but sometimes I just need a break, and today was one of those days. <br />
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But God you are ever faithful and You have reminded me yet again that, "we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope."Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2M60, Primorsky Krai, Russia43.149093999201263 131.92382812541.674242999201262 129.396972625 44.623944999201264 134.450683625tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-18824734158333198612012-03-27T19:06:00.001-05:002012-03-27T19:06:21.265-05:00PrayerOver the past few years, I've felt like God was telling me to write a book for young ladies. It would be a "how to book" that helped them figure out how to be godly young ladies. <br />
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I've started writing this book several times, and each time I get lost in what I want my message to be, and I eventually quit writing. <br />
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The other night, I was talking with a friend and he reminded me that the best way to start anything is with prayer. <br />
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I know that, yet I forgot to do that each time in the past. <br />
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So, this time, I'm bathing this thing in prayer!<br />
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Who knows what will happen with it this time around, hopefully I'll finish it, but I know that this time it will be something God has directed, not Alexa directed.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-29821666090215354372012-03-22T09:38:00.002-05:002012-03-27T19:09:22.298-05:00Stories...We've All Got 'EmAt our school, we have this hard working man, who is definitely a Jack-of-all-Trades. He knows how to fix basically anything. <br />
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Tonight, I just happened upon him in the hallway and we started talking. One thing led to another, and I found myself a few minutes later, sitting and talking with this man and my brothers, and he was just pouring out his history to us without us even asking one question. <br />
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I knew that he wasn't originally from Russia, and I'd been told he was from the 'Stans, but I didn't know which 'Stan. <br />
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As we sat there and talked about many things, from holes in the shower to "meat", I learned that there was more to this man than the world sees. He's from Kazakhstan and comes from a family of teachers, his mom is a doctor, and his brother owns a window factory. He taught for six years, teaching elementary children, and then decided to move to Korea. He loved Korea but he couldn't keep his visa and was deported, not to Kazakhstan, but to Russia, because it was cheaper. He was unloaded from the boat, he grabbed his two suitcases that held his entire world, and he walked into a new unfamiliar world. <br />
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He knew no one. He didn't have a job. Or a place to stay.<br />
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I didn't find out his entire story, but I know that God allowed him to experience all of this and planted him eventually at a Christian school. He is surrounded by missionaries, and he attends the weekly church services, and some of the Ms here say that he has repented and is a believer. Where he grew up, the main religion is Islam. <br />
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I can't help but wonder at God's working in this man's life. <br />
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It makes me stop and think about my own life, about those times I questioned God's plan for me. <br />
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Thank you, God, for the reminder that you are in control of everything. Also, thank you for reminding me, that everyone has a story, and that I need to stop and listen to them from time to time!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-16142164758520811572012-03-18T08:20:00.001-05:002012-04-15T05:33:08.491-05:00Patience...What is That?!?So, I've been reminded the past few weeks how hard it is to be a lady in this day and age, especially when it comes to friendships with boys. There is a very fine line that one walks, and it's very easy to fall over the edge. I've been relearning that I need to be patience and let the man be a man, and that isn't so easy for this modern day woman! <br />
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I've been told through various movies, television shows, and songs that it's okay if I take charge and go after what I want, but that isn't the Biblical view of a lady. We need to let the man be the pursuer. <br />
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I do think that it must be hard for a man in this day in age with all the women's movements and demands for equality to figure out how exactly to pursue a woman. Let me give you a hint men, if the woman you like is a godly woman, then pursue her like crazy, it's what she wants! I know it's scary because you have to put your heart out there, but it's your job as a man! <br />
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Now on to my job as a Christian woman, I need to be patience and remind myself that my goal in life is to glorify God and not seek out a husband. I need to be satisfied with my life the way it is now, and continue to live it daily for Him, and to daily give over this "friendship" and let the Lord handle it. <br />
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By the way, this message isn't directed at any certain guy and I'm not using my blog as a way of pursuing anyone, it's just an honest writing from my heart. Maybe, by writing about what I am struggling with, God can use it to encourage my single brothers and sisters in Christ.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-37440460619275771742012-03-03T10:25:00.002-06:002012-03-03T10:30:04.564-06:00Embracing the New?I read today that for someone to be able to change and embrace the new, they have to first let go of the old. I understand this, and it sounds great and all, but it's not as simple as it seems. <br />
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What if someone hurt you? It's hard to let go of the past if that means letting go of the hurt. Yeah you need to get over it and forgive that person. But what happens when you forgive them? Does it mean that no one else knows or remembers what that person did to you? <br />
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I think that is why it's so hard to forgive someone who's hurt you. It's the fear that Satan uses to tell you that no one else will remember how badly that person treated you, OR if you forgive them, then the world will think that it was just a little incident and that you overreacted. <br />
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It's hard letting go, even after you've forgiven them. But, it's a needed step to embrace the new. <br />
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So, today, even though part of me is screaming not to(the sinfully human part), I will give up the hurt to God. I will let it go and let the Father deal with it. <br />
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I am embracing the new!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-24946364861720635912012-01-28T22:09:00.000-06:002012-01-28T22:14:33.085-06:00Quest for Marshmallows...The other day, we were driving down the road and I saw a sign advertising "Marshmallows, Made in the U.S.A.". Since then, every store that I've been in, I've looked and looked for them. After a few weeks, I gave up my search of the deliciously sugary, puffy bites of cloud. <br />
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Today, I was walking through a store, I happened to look over my shoulder at the aisle next to me, and there on the shelf were....MARSHMALLOWS!! They even have two sizes! Big ones and small ones!!! They are fresh and they even taste like the ones from the states, and aren't a cheap imitation of the real things!! <br />
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I think God is a lot like this when it comes to our future mate. So many of us single females, are actively searching and hunting down/stalking Mr. Right. It's time that we stopped looking, and started living this season of life that God has given us. Don't wait to live, start living now. <br />
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And, one day, while you are living your life and not out on the hunt, Mr. Right will just show up. He will be exactly what you need, and God will supply you with an amazing man of God that respects, loves, and cherishes you. <br />
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How refreshing it is, to just simply focus on what God has called us to do, rather than spending our time and effort on the quest for love. <br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-54069456401587907592011-12-09T07:22:00.001-06:002011-12-09T08:04:54.668-06:00All Things NewI love history and traveling and seeing old buildings, it's fascinating! I believe one of the reasons traveling to new places intrigues me is because I can walk where people have been walking for years. I can tour buildings that have been standing for hundreds of years, and touch the old bricks and imagine what life was like when they were put into place. Also, I love to know the history of the building. Yes, today, it might be a museum or a library, and maybe even a grocery store, but what was it originally? <br />
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When the architects drew up the plans for the building what was their intentions? What was the purpose of the building? <br />
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Russia has a lot of old buildings, and many of them were built during the old Soviet days. Most of these Soviet buildings aren't what I'd consider beautiful, but they do intrigue me, even though I see no aesthetic beauty in them. I love their history. Most of these old buildings were built so people could use them to spread Communism. <br />
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The school where I am living and working was actually built back in the Soviet days. The campus was used for youth camps where children were forced to attend each summer so they could be indoctrinated with Communist ideology. <br />
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About 11 years ago, Korean missionaries bought the land and buildings and turned it into a Christian International school. I love how something that was made to spread the old Soviet ways is being used to spread the Truth. <br />
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If God can do this with old buildings, what can He do with you?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2Vladivostok, Primorskiy Kray, Russia43.1666667 131.933333343.0740172 131.7754048 43.2593162 132.09126179999998tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-43276541380335612212011-10-22T10:37:00.000-05:002011-10-22T10:37:05.351-05:00His Gracious ProvisionLately, I've been conflicted on what comes next in life. Yes, I know that my last blog post also talked about this, so as you can see, it's really been on my mind. <br />
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Some things are becoming clearer, and it has been made evidently clear to me that I needed to get out of Dodge! God wanted me to get away. I needed a time to heal, a time to restore my spirit, and God in His abundant goodness, foresaw everything in the future, and laid this dream of returning to Russia on my heart long before<i> I</i> ever foresaw the need to retreat. How amazing is the Father to provide for His children, and to prepare well in advance a course for them that provides protection and a chance to renew their spirit?! Sitting here typing this, I am amazed at the Father, and am so grateful. He knew what I needed when I had no idea what to do next. He knew and He provided. <br />
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Why didn't I seek God when I needed help? For about a year now, I've been reading through the Old Testament, and time and time again, I've read how God provided for His people. He provided, even when they didn't deserve it, even when they didn't seek or trust Him. He is definitely more patience than I ever would be, and because of His patience, I am seeing a difference in myself. I'm healing and thankfully there won't be a horrible scar left on my soul, and the wound isn't festering with bitterness anymore. <br />
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Thank you God for your provision, for knowing what I need when I don't even know I need it yet! <br />
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Because He has been gracious with me in this, I'm putting more faith in Him for my future, there will be less doubting taking place in this heart! <br />
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Psalm 147<br />
He Heals the Brokenhearted<br />
"<i>1 Praise the LORD! For it is good to sing praises to our God;<br />
for it is pleasant, and a song of praise is fitting.</i><br />
2The LORD builds up Jerusalem;<br />
he gathers the outcasts of Israel.<br />
<i>3He heals the brokenhearted<br />
and binds up their wounds.<br />
4He determines the number of the stars;<br />
he gives to all of them their names.<br />
5 Great is our Lord, and abundant in power;<br />
his understanding is beyond measure.</i><br />
6The LORD lifts up the humble;<br />
he casts the wicked to the ground.<br />
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7 Sing to the LORD with thanksgiving;<br />
make melody to our God on the lyre!<br />
<i>8He covers the heavens with clouds;<br />
he prepares rain for the earth;<br />
he makes grass grow on the hills.<br />
9He gives to the beasts their food,<br />
and to the young ravens that cry.</i><br />
10His delight is not in the strength of the horse,<br />
nor his pleasure in the legs of a man,<br />
11but the LORD takes pleasure in those who fear him,<br />
in those who hope in his steadfast love..."<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-50128957339440879642011-10-10T08:25:00.000-05:002011-10-10T08:25:06.000-05:00Leaping Into The UnknownIt's hard to have faith. Oh it's easy to talk about, and it's easy to claim that you have it, but it's a lot harder when you have to step out in it. It's hard when you have to trust God and you need to make bold moves without complete assurance. <br />
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Lately, I've been questioning what comes next in my life. The last two decisions to live in Russia came pretty easily, but not always quickly. The first time, I heard God calling me to come to Russia, it took me about 10 years to get here! But, I knew my calling, it was clear, and God affirmed it several times, in several different ways. Then the second time, it was also clear and God provided everything, and thankfully it didn't take me nearly as long to get back here. <br />
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For this next chapter of life, I'm not really sure what to do. I have a general idea, but it seems almost impossible! It's going to take a lot of faith.<br />
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Faith to rely on God and His will for my life. Faith to know what I am desiring comes from God. Faith to be obedient and to take that huge leap into unknown territory. <br />
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So, I guess I'm asking for prayers that my desires are God's desires. Also, I want to be obedient and take that huge leap, even though I have no idea where I'm going to land! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-91515844254115434672011-09-11T01:05:00.000-05:002011-09-11T01:05:37.198-05:00BlistersIt's amazing how God can use two blisters to bring you closer to a <i>prickly</i> co-worker. Friday, I decided to wear this pair of cute flats to work, by the middle of the morning, I knew it was a mistake. I had a blister on each heel. <br />
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My days are pretty much packed with one class after another, and I knew I didnt have time to run back to my room to change my shoes. When my next class arrived, my prickly co-worker also arrived with them. As we were working together in the classroom, I decided to ask her if the school doctor had any band aids, and from there we started talking about shoes and wearing high heels (both of us hate them). We found something in common, and by the end of the class, we were smiling and laughing. I never thought I would be thankful for blisters! <br />
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This was a little victory, because I know that come Monday, there is a good chance that it might not be all smiles and laughter, but I will continue to pray for her. I want her to know the joy that only comes from God! I want her to be able to find joy in her life as it is now, even though it isn't what she has always dreamed and longed for. I pray for her to have peace and to thrive in the place that God has planted her! <br />
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Will you please pray this for my prickly co-worker as well? Let's see what happens when "two or more are gathered in His name".<br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com4M-60, Vladivostok, Primorskiy kray, Russia43.125043167401273 131.918334960937542.753834667401271 131.28662096093751 43.496251667401275 132.55004896093749tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-28442319776479406672011-08-23T05:54:00.001-05:002011-08-23T06:21:10.566-05:00AssuranceSo, I've been back in Russia for about a week, and I've had to remind myself several times that life moves at a different pace around here. It's not that anything bad as happened, it's just that things don't happen when I want them to! Ha, imagine that, life moving on and advancing at it's own pace without our approval or input! <br />
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I have enjoyed being back in Russia, but it has been different. I'm in a new location, working with a new set of people, and about a 10 to 15 minute <b>hike</b> to the nearest bus stop, and then to top it all off, about a 30 minute or an hour (depends on the traffic) drive into the city. <br />
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All this to say, life is good, but different. I really do like my new apartment and the new situation that God has placed me in, but it is different. Although, if it wasn't different, I wouldn't have sought the Father like I have, and I wouldn't have found the assurance of knowing this is exactly where God has placed me for the next couple of months. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhI7MxdEXLvt2xHW3Yx4vsKmMQdG-8zyHmQPtLL2CaaDHRsCEJDTUU2_eZWky3V1DyGryo3MLaHHd-sjglqYMySQelcN4TrhFp2EuVPS3hQLjQ3mRexZ4yPt-bYWae-yhfVp2xGF74FK4kO/s1600/P8160022.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear:right; float:right; margin-left:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="240" width="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhI7MxdEXLvt2xHW3Yx4vsKmMQdG-8zyHmQPtLL2CaaDHRsCEJDTUU2_eZWky3V1DyGryo3MLaHHd-sjglqYMySQelcN4TrhFp2EuVPS3hQLjQ3mRexZ4yPt-bYWae-yhfVp2xGF74FK4kO/s320/P8160022.JPG" /></a></div><br />
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Why do we choose second best? <br /><br />Whether it’s picking your life mate, buying a car, or making every day decisions, why do we choose second best? <br /><br />Because at the time, it <span style="font-style:italic;">seems </span>easier! It seems easier to settle for the man that is a good guy, yet isn’t God’s choice for you. It’s easier to buy that car that is cheaper, yet you know its lesser quality and won’t last as long. It’s easier to choose to hang out with <span style="font-style:italic;">those </span>friends and go to <span style="font-style:italic;">that </span>party, instead of spending the night with your family.<br /><br />But where do these easier choices get us? Most of the time, we find ourselves unhappily legally bound, frustrated and broke, dissatisfied and lonely. <br /><br />So, how do we know what is God’s best for our lives? It’s by spending time with God daily and reading the Word and talking with Him. It’s not hard! It’s really quite simple, yet most of us are too lazy to do it every day. Hey, this is another one of those settling areas! We settle for a mediocre relationship with God, when we could have an intimate thriving relationship with a magnificent and glorious Creator of the Universe! <br /><br />Stop settling! Start seeking the Savior for advice! It’s simple!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-8450183173691928552011-04-06T12:45:00.005-05:002011-04-06T13:20:12.917-05:00Love Your Neighbor As Yourself"Love your neighbor as yourself." <br /><br />These are great words, and I believe in them fully, but I'm not going to lie, they are a little hard to act out when you're talking about an unlovable person. How do you "love you neighbor as yourself" when that neighbor has been rude and has said and did many hurtful things to you. Do you have to turn the other cheek?? According to the Bible, you should. But what about that neighbor? If they claim to be a Christian, shouldn't they be held accountable for their words and actions? Aren't we as believers supposed to hold each other accountable?<br /><br />This is something that I have been struggling with for almost the past two years! It's been a hard struggle and many times I've not wanted to forgive this neighbor. But, as you might guess, being a believer, I get convicted by my attitude and thoughts towards that person, and I forgive them. I needed and still need to do that daily because of the memories that satan keeps bringing to mind. How many times have I forgiven this neighbor?? I know it's been many, but not quite close to the "seventy times seven".<br /><br />So my questions are the the following: Should my neighbor be held accountable for their actions? Should I be the one that says something to them, or is it my place to keep my mouth shut and to continue to forgive? <br /><br />No matter what, I will continue to forgive, "seventy time seven", because I do not need this festering in me. I am not seeking an opportunity to talk with this person, but I know they are with me. So, I need prayers, I need grace and I need above all to remember that this is my neighbor and I am to "love my neighbor as myself".Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-73486633450373306732010-12-05T23:36:00.003-06:002010-12-06T01:21:32.317-06:00The Key to Your HeartTonight and yesterday, I've been downloading Taylor Swift's albums. I love her style and how honest and open she is in her music. But one thing struck me tonight as I was watching the music videos and listening to the songs, and I mean really listening to her songs, she's been "in love" many times over these past few years. She must go from guy to guy. Most of her songs tell tales of heartache and heartbreaks. A lot of them are of her real experiences in life. She must have one chaotic drama filled life- anybody would that goes from guy to guy, or girl to girl. I just can't help but think of all the pieces of her heart that she's given away. I have to wonder, does she have anything left? I'm not picking on Taylor. I think she is a beautiful girl and is incredibly talented and has some fun and catchy songs, but her life must be one continuous soap opera.<br /><br />I think we need to guard our hearts. I know several people that have been hurt in love several times. They continually opened their hearts and committed themselves to various people and they were devastated each time the relationships ended. <br /><br />Everyone outside their little relationship circle could see that they were on a sinking ship, yet they never saw it coming. Was that because of blind stupidity-probably so. Now wait and listen to me, don't get upset, please finish reading this. There were signs in each relationship-very obvious signs that even people like me, a distant casual observer could see. So, why couldn't these people see the train wreck that was fast approaching? It's because they were too consumed with love and trying to make the relationship work. Take a step back every now and again, and evaluate the relationship.<br /><br />Don't just give your heart away. Don't just let any old somebody take it and then use it and then stomp on it and put in through a meat grinder and then give it back to you in a way that it can never be fully repaired. <br /><br />Guard it. Value it. Be smart. <br /><br />Don't be in love with the idea of being in love. Don't date someone because you're lonely. I'd rather be lonely and have a few nights having a single girl pity party than months, oh who am I kidding, some times even years, of recovering from a break up.<br /><br />Now I've said all of this to say one last thing. Guard your heart and be careful who you give the key of it to. Don't have several copies. Have one. Give it to your Heavenly Father. Embrace the old fashioned match making and let God pick the one for you. Ask Him to guard that key and to keep it until the right person comes along. Wait for the Heavenly Match Maker to do His job. Trust the Father to have your very best interests at heart. And the best thing with having God as our match maker is that He knows both of you intimately and that means that He will pick the absolute best match for you. <br /><br />So what are you waiting for?? Give up that key. Ask God to keep it safe for you-and trust in His timing and choice. Pray that when God gives the keys of your heart away to that perfect guy that you will know. That it will be abundantly clear and that you will have no doubts and that God will bless the relationship in only the way He can.<br /><br />"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."<br />Proverbs 4:23Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-83466068352568509122010-11-24T04:14:00.003-06:002010-11-24T04:20:10.466-06:00LifeWow! It has been awhile since I've last posted! I have been going non-stop and life has gotten in the way of me taking care of the little things, like this blog, and sending out my newsletter. Sorry, that I've been electronically absent for awhile. <br /><br />Anyway, something that God has done over the past few months, since August, is that He has given me a way to come back here next Fall. I will be coming back to this amazing city to teach English at an international school. I am so excited about it, and ready to teach some kiddos, but I think the thing that I am most excited about, is that my little brother will be coming over here with me! He is also going to be teaching English at the same school, and I think it will be an experience for both of us! <br /><br />I'm not quite sure about our living arrangements yet, but I know that the Father already has it all planned out! <br /><br />So, what's new with you? What has the Father been doing in your life? Has He shown you a new ministry opportunity? Has He taught you something new?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-16612071547054422102010-07-26T10:35:00.000-05:002010-07-26T10:36:23.299-05:00Like King DavidTonight as I sit here and am completely weighed down by Satan and the ways that he is at work in my life, I claim these verses and I ask that God will protect me like He protected King David. I ask for the Father's loving kindness, His peace, for His healing and for His comfort. <br /><br />"Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart have multiplied; free me from my anguish. Look upon my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins. See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they hate me! Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you." <br />-Psalm 25: 16-21Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3220865410211170099.post-38890664219528852422010-07-26T09:45:00.000-05:002010-07-26T09:46:12.189-05:00Leaning on the EverlastingI'm going to lean on the Everlasting... <br /><br />This past week was an interesting week, and I got to meet many amazing people and made several new friends. But I learned a lot this week about people. It made me reflect back on all the times I've traveled and gone on trips. It made me wonder if I've ever had my priorities in mind, and not the ones of the Father. <br /><br />I know that in the future, when I travel, I will always look to you, Father, and for Your will. I will not "lean on my own understanding", but I will seek and listen to Him. Please let me never forget the lessons You taught me this week.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05474228050541510281noreply@blogger.com0